Who does not love good food? Especially comfort food after a stressful day at work or after a busy day running around doing mommy or daddy duties? Or even better, a glass of wine to top it off when kids are asleep. Ahh so good! 

I have always loved food and struggled to resist my favorites. After all, I work hard to eat and that includes listening to what I crave for at any time, any day. Although my intuition is strong and I follow what my spiritual gut tells me (about everything and anyone else), I fail to listen to the biological signals my physical gut is sending me. For a long while, there was a disconnect here. Until I could no longer ignore it. 

There was a reason why I was forgetting my age whenever someone asked me. It’s because I was stuck at my age ten years ago. I still treated myself like I was still twenty seven, when I had so much energy, when I still metabolized anything I consumed, when I was able to go on with sleepless nights (and could even do four night shifts in a row), and when I still did not have kids. BOOM. The reality is, I am not the same as before!

I struggled so much to be healthy. I was at war with high blood pressure and defeated by maintenance daily dosage of antihypertensive pills, which changed so many times in a span of two years by the way. I admitted that I was harsh to my own heart and did not take it into consideration, until it started to become affected. Prior to that, I was aware that my gallbladder was doing its own thing, growing and nurturing a polyp. So now it grew even more, and my right kidney is joining the trend, growing things in it too. I should be happy I’m not dealing with cancer yet.

And I don’t plan to! (This is my brain talking–the strongest internal organ I am proud to have in my human body, as it can withstand anything and it houses my strong willpower!).

Because I want more time. Time to see my kids grow and have their own babies someday. And when that time comes I would like to help them look after my grandchildren, and enjoy the wheel of life that I once experienced with my own grandparents. 

I have reached the point where I have to accept that I am not allowed to eat what I want to eat anymore, and drink the social drinks anymore. I have to get used to eating healthy, targeted to heal specific problems I am dealing with. I have to get off the comfy couch when I am tired and just hit that treadmill to get my cardio going. I have to change my ways completely. I have to live.

I’m sure most of you can still indulge, and I envy you! But why is this whole blog beneficial to the collective consciousness? It is not meant to preach and tell you to eat healthy and exercise in the same way as we all hear it (because clearly I was not able to walk the talk in the past, even when I am licensed to have this knowledge as a healthcare professional for years).

As I am making these conscious changes, I can hear clearer and it’s becoming easier for me to channel messages–and here it goes: This experience revealed to me that I needed to detox badly so that one I can live longer, and two, I can be an effective, clear vessel (spiritually speaking). What is coming through is that one of my multiple purposes right now is to bring you all with me in my transformative journey by sharing this information. I was told it will benefit a lot of you too!